Family

Family is scary. They're conservatives. I mean that in both the personality sense and the political one. My brother and his wife are highly religious (though I think he had to sneak away from her to go to Mass because she's not Catholic and doesn't like him doing that), and my parents are just old (school). I can't have a global warming debate because they don't even think the world is warming (though they haven't so far shown me any evidence).


What scares me more than that is the cynicism of my brother. To think that everyone is unprincipled and that the world runs on lies and scams is sad. It's easier to doubt global warming when you think those pushing any agenda are just pushing to get money and fame I guess. Though it's not proper reasoning on the topic at hand.

I can't imagine thinking about women and money all the time while having such a cynical view of the world. It seems sad. Also, I wouldn't still be thinking about women all the time if I were married. Maybe Tiger is the norm. Maybe everyone is like my brother in that they don't believe in or have any real morals. They have things they think are right (like not cheating), but they only vaguely believe it in a way that wouldn't stop them if opportunity came.


Like all people I project too much of my own beliefs onto others. I tend to think other people have right and wrong in their life that guides their desires. So when I'm in a relationship I lose all desire to pursue other women because it doesn't exist as a possible alternative to me. I don't see it as something available that I shouldn't do. I see it as something unavailable.

I hope I never lose this belief that the rest of the world is mostly like me and become a cynic.