tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78589622011-08-16T16:37:07.764-05:00I'm a 29 year old male. I've spent my life in school so far. Now, after a BA and JD from the University of Texas, I am done with school. I assume one day I'll settle down and get married, have kids, etc... but right now I'm just enjoying my 20s. If you're new to this blog, please read bottom up. Newest posts are on top. Thanks for reading and please comment.MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.comBlogger611100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-84100468771864794052010-02-09T00:09:00.002-06:002010-02-09T00:57:49.233-06:00

No time for a blog, but so much on my mind. In some way I'm screwing it all up. I come off wrong.I should pay more attention to the things I think don't matter.

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-9107809518151633082009-12-25T08:55:00.003-06:002009-12-25T09:15:43.706-06:00

Family is scary. They're conservatives. I mean that in both the personality sense and the political one. My brother and his wife are highly religious (though I think he had to sneak away from her to go to Mass because she's not Catholic and doesn't like him doing that), and my parents are just old (school). I can't have a global warming debate because they don't even think the world is

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-27977009846158173852009-12-14T20:11:00.003-06:002009-12-14T21:05:14.037-06:00

It's been a while since I blogged. I was finding a pattern of using the blog only for negative and sad things so it naturally went away when I was in a relationship or busy. Over time I heard complaints from people who said I was emo, gay, or just sad based on old posts and sharing of my feelings elsewhere.I don't think those things are accurate. I never did. I think people just have a hard

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-63304123632797644942009-03-08T15:09:00.002-05:002009-03-08T16:11:49.507-05:00

So I have had a great year in Austin. So many parties and friends. I'm having my birthday party at the end of this month and it's great to be able to have so many people come celebrate with me. I'm excited about going to Vegas next month too.Despite what a great year it's been I seem to blog a great deal about loneliness. My relationships have always been intense. I don't think most people

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-49214584428036579652009-02-10T11:16:00.002-06:002009-02-10T11:32:54.047-06:00

I had a great 2008. I hung out with a lot of fun people and went to a ton of parties. Unfortunately I wasn't able to become friends with those people so other than the large parties, I don't know what's going on in their lives and we don't associate.So now I feel gaps forming. I spent Saturday night at home reading. Not something I wanted to do, but everyone I know was busy with something

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-56371831060333823462009-02-03T11:06:00.002-06:002009-02-03T12:50:42.679-06:00

Some kind of 25 random things posting is going around so here are some random "things" in my life: (didn't I try this a while ago?)1. I don't believe in punishment or willpower.2. I brush my teeth as often at work as at home (toothbrushes at both places).3. I take a bite out of hamburger buns as I remove them from the bag.4. Monday has become the party night of 2009. It's a combination of

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-61225526045351205552009-01-21T11:18:00.002-06:002009-01-21T11:26:30.318-06:00

I don't think that I drink too much. But sometimes others think I do. My usual things to look for in evaluating this are does it affect my health, is my job in jeopardy because of it, do I drive drunk or engage in risky/harmful behaviors, am I losing friends, etc. None of that is happening.Still, I've been drunk 3 times already this year (once was New Year's). That is a lot to me. Granted,

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-52472598732093382882009-01-08T18:52:00.002-06:002009-01-08T19:00:47.689-06:00

I probably need to find a new group of friends. It's difficult because I tend to take the blame for them disliking me upon myself and think that I can just change. That I can fix whatever I do wrong. Also, I like my friends right now. They're very fun, creative people.But they don't like me much. I am often not invited to things and shit is talked behind my back. It's sad. The people I'm

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-78749642216635324422008-12-19T11:38:00.002-06:002008-12-19T12:21:20.699-06:00

I used to be a very apathetic person. Robotic. I mentioned before that I seem to have accomplished the change to being more emotional (a bit more than I wanted). I like to think that we can control our emotions by adjusting our perspectives and expectations in life. In fact, I've been very successful at doing just that most of my life.But lately I pay more attention to the subtleties and I

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-55386257144088153312008-12-07T19:56:00.002-06:002008-12-07T22:33:26.477-06:00

The end is nigh!I am sad to see the end coming. I had three fantasy football teams. Two didn't make the playoffs and the other one (that was 1st in the league), just lost. So no more fantasy football.Also, the Cowboys lost. If they playoffs started today they'd probably get the last playoff spot, but they lost today so they most likely have to win the last three games to make the playoffs.

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-21839602228470743502008-11-28T19:33:00.003-06:002008-12-14T20:45:44.148-06:00

I often yearn for challenges. I saw Iron Man today. I read some fantasy novels lately too. They're fantastic stories about one person being heroic and having so much power in this world. But in real life we neither face challenges so big (else society would be chaotic and people would die regularly), nor do we ever acquire so much power. The guy that "invents" an iron flying suit will be a

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-48088186800960825462008-11-11T16:24:00.003-06:002008-11-11T16:37:35.157-06:00

I have a day off! I went to work for a couple hours anyway, but waking up late and not dressing up is wonderful. I have spent most of the day sitting around playing word twist on facebook, but it's been very nice. There's good weather outside and the chickens gathered to listen to my music when I opened the windows.Yes, you read that right. The chickens. We have two in the backyard and the

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-54219330064043877782008-11-07T11:17:00.002-06:002008-11-07T11:24:51.220-06:00

In high school I couldn't do anything twice. Even my favorite songs and CDs got old fast as I sought new experiences and bigger and better things. Now, more than 10 years later, I seem to become obsessed with one song at a time. I like to break down the meanings of deep songs and listen to them for days at a time. Here are the last few I've been absorbed in: So I am at work, behind with a

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-81436573593196214502008-10-29T23:18:00.002-05:002008-10-29T23:52:31.484-05:00

So I was typing this into the title and the same words came up. Have I really used this same title? Not so surprising I guess. I do seem to have the same topics no matter what I start to talk about.In that theme I felt like talking about perspective and dating again. It came up today that I kind of wish I played video games, watched TV, and did all those other lazy, normal US activities.

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-21525628360270945192008-10-23T23:48:00.002-05:002008-10-24T01:55:29.907-05:00

Lately, short stories have grabbed at my brain strings. The genre doesn't have the time and space to lay out a world for the reader. Instead it is forced to pick one character with one particular feeling and convey that as powerfully as possible. This leaves the short story most often focusing on loneliness. There is a common theme of looking at society from the outside.In many ways I

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-51549354550791697262008-10-21T01:19:00.000-05:002008-10-22T17:22:51.334-05:00

So I was tagged. Blogging is just another attempt to be social to me, so I will not turn this down. http://dontcallmekathleen.blogspot.com/ tagged me, so I'll try to respond.Here be the rules, yo!1. Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog.2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-80823101776687994142008-10-16T17:56:00.003-05:002008-10-16T23:51:50.945-05:00

What's your typical week like? What should it be like? What do you most want to change? I tend to spend Sundays watching football and drinking beer. Monday I get up at 7am, shower and go to work. Get home at 5pm, check my online social networks, and go out drinking with friends or play dodgeball (I'm between seasons right now). Tuesday I repeat the same routine, only it's trivia night

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-8885695105999323132008-10-11T16:55:00.002-05:002008-10-11T17:36:13.285-05:00

This is my only "public" blog. I have a myspace one, but it's pretty much friends only for my posts. Even there I came across the idea that sharing my thoughts can harm me. I kind of figure nobody I know in person reads this.It's an odd concept for me. I believe we should all be completely open and honest. Exceptions would things like national security and self-defense. But you should

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-52639283315156959312008-10-10T23:42:00.000-05:002008-10-11T17:37:08.970-05:00

The issue that I'm trying to solve by learning not to seem opinionated is the feeling of exclusion I get so often. I am not able to get close to people or make friends easily. I seem to have a lot of acquaintances, but they're not the kind of people who tell me if they're dating anyone or invite me to parties they're not hosting themselves.Tonight was a good example. I have no friends at work.

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-73360697163010873122008-10-09T22:46:00.003-05:002008-10-09T23:14:26.576-05:00

I grew up with a personality that you might say had a stick in its butt. Even just a few years ago I remember someone looking at me on new year's and saying I was most likely to not get drunk that night.I have fought this uptight personality I believed I obtained from my family. I have tried to be more laid back and fun. I thought if I could change I'd make more friends and be closer to people

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-32891100883341597992008-10-06T23:54:00.002-05:002008-10-07T00:33:32.358-05:00

I feel pretty sedate today. I'm pretty happy with my situation I think. I didn't even go out tonight. I would have liked to, but felt like seeing what staying in is like. It's not so impressive.I didn't get much done staying in, but it's nice not to feel lonely doing so. Still, I want some change soon. A date or a new job. Something. But I feel no great urgency. I have a lot of friends

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-30085832100433098502008-10-04T02:42:00.003-05:002008-10-04T11:03:35.815-05:00

I really identify with the guy this song is directed at. These thoughts have been directed at me more than once...Rilo Kiley, Plane Crash in Cif you're scared and it shows cause you're watching them growand traveling blows when you're out of roadand when you jump up the earth wants you backyour resentment grows till you're all alonebut you're so smart how could they not knowwhen you're standing

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-50599323122895508142008-10-01T19:45:00.004-05:002008-10-01T19:48:25.077-05:00

I bought a home brew kit! Excited. I shall buy a few more parts and begin making my own beer soon. Cheaper and higher quality beer. Sweet.Wedding and toga party this Sat. Excited. I am ready to get my flirt on. I love weddings.

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-91841560778628524182008-09-29T00:28:00.002-05:002008-09-29T01:02:49.306-05:00

ACL = asthmaI spent the weekend doing this giant music festival in Austin known as ACL. I saw many great bands. Overall I did not like it. The dust and allergies causing me horrible asthma making it hard just to breath played a huge part in that. I loved having friends over from out of town, but the house is trashed so I feel bad about that. This place is quite dirty and I have a hard time

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-46096589703838226772008-09-23T23:04:00.005-05:002008-09-24T11:50:20.698-05:00

Life is easy...That's a weird thought to have while shooting a gap between cars on the freeway at 95mph. But still, life for me has been pretty easy.I hate that's it's not always so obvious, but I was awaiting some awesome friends at Flying Saucer earlier this afternoon wondering whether I should feel bored or lonely when it occurred to me that it was pretty incredible to have the money and free

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-77411409666287833252008-09-20T12:29:00.002-05:002008-09-20T12:41:26.106-05:00

Not dating anyone now. But there's a big party tonight! So maybe there's hope for someone new. Either way that year of no real dating is over. I'm happy about that. And I was happy with it while it lasted. Didn't have any feeling of compromise on my part or any signs that I was attracted to the wrong kind of person.So that's sad news. I don't know what I could have done differently, but

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-16801266799732396252008-09-13T16:29:00.002-05:002008-09-13T17:15:28.056-05:00

I'm dating someone. How novel. It had been a long time. Normally on dates I'm full of doubts and wondering if I like the person, but I'm glad I was so patient and picky now. I don't have those doubts this time. (I'm looking for images for this blog, but trying to avoid being sappy or romantic... hence this being a short post. This is tough.)It's interesting. We mostly see each other hanging

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-85040129556253763252008-09-06T16:04:00.002-05:002008-09-06T16:11:56.277-05:00

The year streak is broken. It's still early and I don't know her extremely well, but I'm excited to be "dating" or whatever this is. I'd talk more about it, but I hate to start putting labels to something that's so ambiguous right now. So, once I know more I'll update.There's a potential for drama. Blah! I have this tendency to just want to shout everything in my life all the time. I think

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-983467147629837882008-08-25T12:19:00.002-05:002008-08-25T12:44:33.258-05:00

On the tact blog... I am just noticing the problem, but it's what I've noticed before. I don't know how to change it. I don't have much hope that it'll happen. I will basically learn to speak less and lower my expectations so that I'm happy reading more and don't really expect people to wish to get to know me.It really was a great weekend. The housewarming party was a much bigger hit than I

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-71480075884966999922008-08-23T13:18:00.002-05:002008-08-23T13:29:20.842-05:00

I have no tact. It's taken a long time to realize this. I think it's the summary of what everyone has described about me that is so offensive. The problem is that I don't recognize when I am being tactless. Still, I really think this is the problem. It makes sense. There's something about me that offends other people without me knowing it. Tactless.So, knowing this I shall focus on fixing

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-89535637879274116292008-08-22T18:01:00.002-05:002008-08-22T18:21:07.067-05:00

It has been a while now. Years. But I shall host a party. I have the feeling that it will not go well. Living on my own I could not bring enough people together. Also, I was new to Austin and my place was too small. But I'm single, settled into a city, and have roommates in a big house now. It is party time. The first of many I hope.I shall spend tonight and tomorrow morning cleaning.

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-58940661016854768392008-08-09T15:22:00.002-05:002008-08-10T11:40:24.501-05:00

It has been a busy week. I wish I could have written this while I was on the road in the midst of these feelings. I was pumped up. It was "drunk dial" time even though I hadn't been drinking. Often, when in a great mood, I feel the need to share those feelings. To get them out. I guess even bad emotions are the same. Emotions beg for release. So I called lots of people on my way home from

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-69246822306091584582008-08-04T22:44:00.002-05:002008-08-04T23:03:31.204-05:00

I don't have time for details right now. Or rather, I'm choosing to do other things like unpack instead. But I wanted to say that it's been an incredible weekend. I'm pumped about living here. I was pumped to get to do a short road trip and have an awesome high school reunion. And I'm pumped at the possibility of a new job!New place to live with great people around is enough, but the other

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-73192217618675729952008-07-28T23:16:00.003-05:002008-07-28T23:45:14.103-05:00

I try to keep this separate from my myspace blog. There is a battle. Like the epic battle coming between ninjas and pirates. Only this one is tiny. It's within my head. Between whether to post here or on Myspace. I don't want the blogs to be duplicates. So I decide where each blog belongs. Often they relate, but are different. Usually this one is more of an emotional outpouring while the

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-90255134893963796622008-07-25T18:08:00.002-05:002008-07-25T18:24:29.163-05:00

So I threw my pen at the wall at court today. A fiery coworker said I was acting more like her and angry for once. I think I was just throwing a pen like I always do. But the memory came up just now. I'm home and considered breaking a pen I have sitting here in front of me out of anger. Then I said "this is kind of a neat pen" and grabbed a coathanger. I was laughing at myself for bending a

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-10729120016504023772008-07-22T23:23:00.003-05:002008-07-26T11:39:53.005-05:00

Enough B-52s. Still, I am moving into a funky little shack. And I hope it will be a love shack. ;-)Seems like a large portion of my friends also move in the next couple of weeks. I move from my tiny, expensive one bedroom apartment in the nice area of Austin up to the centrally located, but less nice area near my work. Best of all I get roommates for the first time in many years (not

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-61062279825447052162008-07-16T19:16:00.002-05:002008-07-18T19:22:46.943-05:00

I think this topic was on someone else's blog. Jamie's and maybe a few other places lately, but I seem to lack patience. I feel like others think I'm rushing everything so they are aggravated by me. Like my pace of life is too fast. I wonder what it'd be like to live up northeast. I still feel I'd like the west coast better, but maybe I'd fit in better up east where life is fast paced. I

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com22tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-22217318664711253902008-07-11T20:53:00.003-05:002008-07-12T09:52:47.250-05:00

I wonder how much most people know themselves. I don't feel that I have any clue how most people perceive me. I wouldn't be surprised if I were some extremely ugly dork or if I was some kind of unapproachable bad-ass.People always talk about self-esteem like my thoughts on how others perceive me means I'm either arrogant or depressed. Other people's perceptions of me don't change what I think

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-89635384349189413932008-07-06T14:20:00.004-05:002008-07-06T14:40:27.549-05:00

Flirting embarrasses me. I was told I came on too strong at the pool party yesterday. I was not told by the person I flirted with luckily, but still, it brings up strong feelings of embarrassment. Somehow it's related to a fear of rejection I bet. Flirting is a difficult thing for me to do.More fun parties this weekend. Friday I spent my time at home getting over the week, then went out and

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-44351591134712878132008-07-02T18:47:00.003-05:002008-07-02T18:58:16.104-05:00

The sweets are sweeter because work is so sour, but man are things bad right now. I am extremely down about my coworkers. Even the nicer ones have been extremely insulting towards me lately. I had sought to just avoid talking to coworkers, but not only is that difficult for me (I'm quite social), but it seemed like an immature reaction.So instead I am going through that horrid process I went

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-39930125397896332832008-06-23T18:22:00.001-05:002008-06-23T18:27:25.483-05:00

Well I've been pretty down lately. I'm glad I'm in Austin because I tend to stay busy and have things to do to distract myself, but work is horrible because I'm surrounded by people who are friends with each other but dislike me. Also, I have no dating/romantic life. It's been almost a year since I've even kissed a girl. Ridiculous.That's all, just gonna point that out. Not many read this

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-75878812489211881682008-06-14T15:39:00.003-05:002008-07-12T09:53:54.109-05:00

I hadn't been going to the gym for a long time now and my AustinSSC sports have all ended, so I took some time to get some exercise this week.I got tired of this auto-playing so I'm just leaving the link here now:http://www.whoisthemonkey.com/videos/incrediblemartialartsplussoccer.wmvI signed up for a dodgeball team, an indoor soccer team, and I played my usual volleyball Thursday night, then

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-73555003836399589922008-06-08T12:27:00.002-05:002008-06-08T12:38:19.181-05:00

I'll start by noting that my job offer was rescinded because I went to Flipside. Pretty messed up. The accusation was not that I did anything wrong myself, but that because it's possible that the public would see that as an inappropriate event I used bad judgment in going.The news is good to me on a few fronts. It makes me feel better about finding a new job because I was right that there are

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-8464898083111541262008-06-01T12:05:00.002-05:002008-06-01T12:15:15.308-05:00

Yes, I go back and forth a lot meaning maybe I'm overreacting, but I do so because I don't really have a good clue as to why I can't get dates or have women interested in me.So I have swung from the idea that I'm too shy and timid to the opposite theory. It was suggested to me last night that women know when a man is interested in them. Does anyone agree or disagree with this idea? It was said

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-77676596786657012292008-05-31T09:45:00.003-05:002008-05-31T09:57:34.960-05:00

This rarely happens, so I'll write what I can remember, it's long:I was flying maybe. We were traveling very very fast over land. I think we were running from the objects from outer space. Anyway, they were coming. Tons of flying saucer looking things. They were smashing into earth. Finally we stopped and we were arming up to fight the things. Someone knew about them previously and said

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Change jobs soon... but my current director had a "meeting" with me AND my future boss to say I shouldn't have gone to Flipside. For some reason someone told her I did and she freaked out. Anywho, here's more Flipside pics:

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It was incredible. I don't have the patience to write about it now, but I loved it. Being in a society without money where everyone is sharing seems to make everyone extremely friendly and social. It's a MUCH better way to live. I'll find the time and patience to write all about it soon, but for now have a couple crappy pictures I took the first day. The good pics I'll have to get from

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-22421118815009448362008-05-21T18:34:00.000-05:002008-05-21T18:35:12.076-05:00

I'm off to go camp all weekend. I'll be back in a week with some crazy stories.

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-33704917181468548072008-05-14T22:29:00.002-05:002008-05-14T22:38:51.188-05:00

So I know some people in a local vegan group now. I had vegan pizza with a few at The Parlor tonight. I hope to hang out with them all a lot more. The girls I met in the group are gorgeous. The coworker that came by tonight to borrow some stuff is gorgeous too and she's vegetarian. I have high standards of beauty and seeing so many beautiful single people in one night puts me in a great mood

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-693127802351128242008-05-10T20:03:00.003-05:002008-05-10T20:53:14.305-05:00

It seems to me that not understanding a situation leads to drama. The typical example of this for me is a breakup. If you don't know why it ended it is VERY hard to move on. Even if you can't know you have to at least pick this place in your head where you have a certainty that you've done everything you need to. A certainty that it's over. It is hard to be certain when you don't understand

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-57573045910484555902008-05-07T19:13:00.003-05:002008-05-07T19:23:44.956-05:00

So the point of this blog was to move past the "whiny" emotional outpourings in part, but now it seems like the point of this blog should be the place to come vent all that where none of my friends will see it. I can just quit blogging that stuff on MySpace and everybaby will be none the wiser, heh.I have been up and down in my mood a LOT lately. Normally I'm just a steady happy, but lately

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So after the work drama about a month ago I applied to another DPS position. I wish I'd looked for a step up in my career, but instead I went for the easy lateral move within the same company. I am somewhat scared of leaving this social atmosphere of young attorneys like me, but I don't regret leaving a job where a couple coworkers want me fired.So I was kind of down about this offer for the

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-87474763783196839442008-05-02T07:12:00.002-05:002008-05-02T07:14:50.799-05:00

I'm still in a funk and don't know why. No time to write much so here are some Sage Francis lyrics. Not usually my style of music, but I really like this guy:[it was too good to last he thoughtmight as well have been a dream he thought]lights are out,phones are dead,and I'm the only thing thats running in this city.except for the clouds,and man they're coming down.if I knew my way aroundI

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-35207058981595055732008-04-26T08:52:00.003-05:002008-04-26T11:55:23.350-05:00

So I went many many years without a dentist between being a kid on my parents insurance and getting this state job last year. In that time my teeth seemed okay. I didn't really have any problems.I finally got dental insurance and saw a dentist last year. They said I have the beginnings of gum disease and that I'd need a deep cleaning. I said okay. They had poked me with their pointy stick in

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Just a random update so that I don't go too long without blogging.On the downside my car may be having a problem. It has a weird engine noise. I'm trying to bus, bike, and share rides everywhere until I figure it out. Those are good things to do anyway. So far I think it may be a water pump leak, but I'll have to look at it more soon.I interviewed for a possible new job today. Still at DPS,

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-70431106289730627652008-04-21T10:18:00.002-05:002008-04-21T10:36:51.094-05:00

I am a ginger. A soulless ginger. Vampire Mark.That's not me if you're wondering. I had left my sunscreen with Rick when we went tubing last weekend and I thought an hour or two in the pre-noon sun would be okay on me Saturday morning. Wrong!So now I am a vampire that must avoid the sun to live. That means it's been a pretty low key weekend. Not as much exercise and running around as I

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-81672665936233955372008-04-18T18:28:00.003-05:002008-04-18T19:03:03.943-05:00

A bad mood has overtaken me the last few days. I am almost always happy, but have been in quite a funk lately. Typically I'd just shrug it off, but I want to know why it happened. I disagree with what I'm doing though. Using a negative emotion as a motivation for action is wrong in my book.I shouldn't stay sad to keep me in a mood that motivates me to fix the problem. That's a form of

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Romance, I can't escape it. Love really. I'm not super romantic, but I am all about love. If I were more romantic love would be easier for me, but I'll work on it. Any tips for that? I should read some books.Anyway, that's always on my mind. I'm quite happy in life right now. I have a lot of things to do each night and many great friends that keep me busy, but still I'd like to fall in

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-66506744927209227172008-04-13T14:48:00.003-05:002008-04-13T15:11:12.695-05:00

I do not have much background in writing. I never paid much attention in English or cared about my particular "style" since I tend not to have the patience to create art. But here I am, writing, so I shall attempt to notice and improve my style as I put my words to paper/blog. If nothing else this will teach me patience.Stylistically I enjoy Chuck Palahniuk's writing a great deal. He is a

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-50595497948403128182008-04-09T22:55:00.003-05:002008-04-10T00:18:50.549-05:00

Hi, I'm Mark.I don't know quite how to introduce myself because I lack your perspective, so I'll largely avoid the important things like adjectives about how I'm "open" and "honest" since those don't mean much without knowing what they're relative to. I'll stick to facts for now. Feel free to ask anything you wish.I was born in Houston, TX in 1980. My parents are older than all of my friends'

MarkJDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12987422744303739342noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7858962.post-40558180251489090582008-04-07T20:08:00.004-05:002008-04-07T21:04:26.489-05:00

I'm deleting all the old blogs. It's a new start from here on out.There are a ton of big events that I may never remember again that are being deleted forever. It's not that I'm that sad about it, but it is a sad idea. I don't spend time rereading old thoughts anyway so I'm not really losing anything, but as I delete them I regret that I don't maintain those memories. Until I am reminded of

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